GOOD GRIEF

Lefty liberals in America are in one of the seven 'stages of grief' over the recent presidential election of November 2016. Actually, now that I think of it, it appears that most of them are still in shock and denial. The 'stages of grief' are more commonly used to describe the emotions one feels after losing a loved one. Surely Hillary Clinton does not really qualify as a 'loved one.' Or maybe she does. Who knows?

1. Shock and Denial
2. Pain and Guilt
3. Anger and Bargaining
4. Depression, Reflection and Loneliness
5. The UPWARD TURN
6. Reconstruction and Working Through
7. Acceptance and Hope

I am going through my own stages of grief of a sort as I come to grips with how far backwards I have retrogressed with my weight management in recent weeks and months. More than two years ago, I  'discovered' the secret to weight loss. Eat Less, Exercise more, lose one pound at a time.

Apparently the secret to weight gain, which is a polar opposite, is still similar. Eat more, exercise less, gain one pound at a time.

I think I am at Stage 5 - THE UPWARD TURN. I sincerely hope that I am beyond Step 4, depression.  Depression is certainly not productive. 

I have publicly proclaimed many times over the past months, that 'this time I am serious.'   I simply cannot face a continuing charge backward up the wrong hill.

My weight was 247 lbs on Saturday three days ago. This is a major step backwards from where I have more recently been as recently as last October when I was below 220 lbs.  It is probably part of 'BARGAINING' that I constantly remind myself that I was once 309 lbs. At this point in my life, this is no longer the weight that I want to compare myself to.  I have to accept how far backwards I have traveled and I have to have the hope that I can get back on track. I am certain that more dedication is required than more hope. 

Your Food Diary For:

Monday, March 20, 2017

BREAKFAST	Calories kcal	Carbs g	Fat g	Protein g	Sodium mg	Sugar g
Kirkland - Pre-Cooked Bacon	200	0	15	15	875	0
Egg - Poached Eggs	300	2	20	25	630	1
	500	2	35	40	1,505	1
L U N C H
Homemade - Beef and Bean Burrito	600	50	47	77	2,000	0
	600	50	47	77	2,000	0
D I N N E R
Fresh Express - Chopped Kit - Asian Salad	360	45	27	9	690	24
Blackberries	100	22	1	3	2	11
	460	67	28	12	692	35
Totals	1,560	119	110	129	4,197	36
Your Daily Goal	2,250	281	75	113	2,300	84
Remaining	690	162	-35	-16	-1,897	48
	Calories kcal	Carbs g	Fat g	Protein g	Sodium mg	Sugar g

       Your Exercise Diary for:

Monday, March 20, 2017

Cardiovascular	Minutes	Calories Burned
MATRIX TREADMILL	60	406
Daily Total / Goal	60 / 30	406 / 590
Weekly Total / Goal	60 / 210	406 / 4,130

SEAN CONNERY

At the International Quilt Show in Houston, I continued to see people that I have not seen in over a year.  My body certainly casts a different shadow than the one it cast one year ago.  One year ago, in this very same city at this very same show, I weighed north of 300 lbs.  Fast forward one year later and I am 'only' 219 lbs.  There were a few people that I saw over the past two days that were 'shocked' at my new look.  A few people asked if I had lost this weight by design, half afraid that I might be suffering from some horrible illness responsible for this loss of poundage.  I am used to this line of questioning.  I take great pleasure in explaining that this change in physique has been purposeful.  In years past, I almost never hung out with my colleagues much longer after 11:00PM or Midnight as I was simply too tired.  I still do not aspire to do this every night - but it is fun to have enough energy to decide to join my colleagues after dinner once in a while.  Sometimes, things get accomplished in the wee hours of the evening.  After dinner, our group walked over to another hotel closer to the convention center where many of our Quilt Market associates are staying.  Aside from having some fun, drinking a couple (or a few drinks) I did run into one of my customers that I wished to see here at the show. I spoke with her and she and did promise to visit my booth today.  This little detail can't happen if I am holed up in my hotel room instead of mixing it up every once in a while.  I also met a customer of my brother, from Oregon, who denied that she had ever met me before. It's not like we are best friends or anything - but I do know that I barely resemble that blob that I used to be.  This woman told me that I looked like Sean Connery.  

I don't really think I look like Sean Connery - but I sure ain't offended to hear it

I am sure that it is highly possible that she was drinking a bit too much. But you know what.... I have been around inebriated people before and no one in my entire life has ever told me that I looked like anyone that I would want to look like.  For example, being told that I looked like John Goodman could have potentially happened but who would have wanted to be told that in the past. 

It would have been no compliment to be told that I looked like John Goodman in the past. It would be OK to be told that now as John Goodman recently shed a lot of weight.  Nevertheless, he has a lot of hair atop his head - so it is very unlikely that I would be told that I looked like him.  Still, I have always admired him as an actor.

By the way, John Goodman, has recently lost a lot of weight and he looks good too!  I still don't look like him, as he has a full head of hair.  Me and Sean Connery do apparently have the baldness thing in common.  It is likely that that is the only thing that we do have in common.  Still, hearing that comment that I resembled Connery made me smile.  Sean Connery has been the guy that I have always considered the number one best looking guy on the planet.  If some people want to believe that I look like him - who am I to argue?

Your Food Diary For:

Sunday, October 25, 2015

BREAKFAST	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Sodium	Sugar
Quaker - Instant Oatmeal- Maple, 2 packet	320	64	4	8	520	24
FORRELLI - MULTIGRAIN RICE CAKES, 18 SLICE	360	72	0	0	360	0
Apples - Apples, 3 medium apple	240	66	0	0	0	48
	920	202	4	8	880	72
L U N C H
FORRELLI - MULTIGRAIN RICE CAKES, 18 SLICE	360	72	0	0	360	0
WHOLE FOODS 7882 - GIN GINS ORIGINAL CHEWY GINGER, 96 g (2pcs)	320	80	0	0	0	80
Apples - Apples, 2 medium apple	160	44	0	0	0	32
	840	196	0	0	360	112
D I N N E R
Generic - Mahi Mahi, 3.5 oz.	108	0	1	24	112	0
Trader Joe's - Jumbo Sea Scallops - Frozen, 8 oz/113 g	200	6	2	38	360	0
Steak - 8 Oz Sirloin, 0.5 slice	228	0	14	23	0	0
Great Value - Can Corn, 0.5 cup	60	9	2	2	10	0
bread - French, 138 g	360	72	3	15	840	3
	956	87	22	102	1,322	3
S N A C K S
Dewars - Scotch 1 oz. Shot, 6 oz.	414	0	0	0	0	0
	414	0	0	0	0	0
Totals	3,130	485	26	110	2,562	187
Your Daily Goal	2,302	288	76	116	2,300	86
Remaining	-828	-197	50	6	-262	-101
	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Sodium	Sugar
TOTAL CALORIES CONSUMED 3130 CALORIES CALORIES BURNED ZERO CALORIES TOTAL NET CALORIES 3130 CALORIES ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~  fitbit day 53 14220 steps ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~