WHAT A MORON (DAY 64)

You are wondering who is the moron?
It is I.

On December 25, 2014, I weighed 309 lbs. This morning I weighed 237 lbs.
That's good. Nothing moronic about that.  I am down 72 lbs from December 24, 2014.
But there is a moronic way that I traveled to get here.

One year ago, I weighed 255 lbs. This morning I weighed 237 lbs.
That's good.  Nothing moronic about that.  I am down 8 lbs in the last year.
But there is a moronic way that I traveled to get here.

Two months ago. I weighed 283. 6 lbs.  It is moronic that I let myself gain so much weight.
This morning I weighed 237 lbs.
That's good. Nothing moronic about that. 
I am down 47 lbs in the past two months.
There is nothing particularly moronic about that.
That is, if I can end repeating the cycle of losing and gaining weight.

This chart of my weight since December 24, 2014 through this morning, October 1, 2018 shows that I have lost 72.5 pounds in the past four years.  This would be a great chart if it was a chart of the Dow Jones after the 1929 crash.  As a chart of my weight over the past four years, it's a bit moronic.

This is a chart of my weight in the past twelve months, one year.  In the past year I have lost 8.4 lbs.  That is a very hard way to lost 8.4 lbs. In fact, it's a moronic way to lost 8.4 lbs in one year. 

This is a chart of my weight over the past two months. In the past two months, I have lost a relatively astounding 47.1 lbs. There is nothing moronic about that as long as I don't repeat the cycle of gaining much of it back. I would like to think that my days of being a moron, at least with respect to my weight are behind me. 

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I have never read this book, apparently I just about could have written it

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Four days in... and I am imagining that I am on the right track.
Once again, I am determined.
I can not easily explain why I needed to go so very far backwards before reversing course.
Right now, that is irrelevant.
Monday morning I weighed 283.6 lbs and that's what is important.
My current reality.
Four days in, I am already assuming that at least a few ounces have vanished into thin air.
I am going to try to resist stepping on the scale for day or so more.

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I'M BACK

Welcome to my blog.
I am a bit of a moron.
On December 24, 2014 I weighed 309 lbs.
I weighed myself a couple of days ago on Monday, and I weighed 283.6 lbs.
Oh, lucky me, I am down 25 lbs.
This is true.
It is also true that I was tipping the scale at 213 lbs a couple of years ago.
When my weight approached and surpassed 230 I was disgusted but did not make any changes.
When my weight approached and surpassed 240, I was more disgusted but did not make any changes.
When my weight approached and surpassed 250, I was even more disgusted.
and my disgust continued past 260, 270 and 280.
The more weight I gained, the more disgusted I got with myself.
I have been waiting for the day when I finally say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
THAT DAY WAS MONDAY JULY 30, TWO DAYS AGO.
I AM GOING TO REVERSE COURSE (AGAIN)
I understand my personality... It almost has to be a game to keep me on track.
I started entering my meals into myfitnesspal, again.
And I am no longer going to be snacking with wild reckless abandon.
I have some colleagues flying into Chicago to work with me October 2.
I would like to NOT be a fat pig when I pick them up.
I will have a national tradeshow to attend November 2.
I would like to NOT be a fat pig when I see everyone in my industry.
I will likely visit my Mom, in December.
I would like to NOT be a fat pig when I visit my Mom.
I may pass a mirror from time to time.
I would like to NOT see a fat pig in the reflection.
So, there it is... my new 'baseline' weight is 283.6 lbs as of Monday morning July 30.
I know it seems ridiculous... but after two days of NOT eating like a moron... I already feel better.

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This blog is very useful for me... It gives me the opportunity to publicly criticize myself when I go off the rails as I have recently done. Once again, I have needed to remind myself that I am not impervious to the effects of eating too much chocolate and/or cake and/or granola and/or other stupid stuff. I wildly overate yesterday. And this morning, Sunday, I continued. So now, I will proclaim to myself with the internet as my witness, I will improve as the week progresses, beginning with lunch on Sunday. I have not much more to say on this issue. I am a bit disgusted with myself. So right now I am going to exercise, knowing full well that I cannot erase the five large chocolate chip cookies I just had after my over-indulgent high calorie breakfast. THIS IS WHAT I THINK: It is not so unusual for a person to get completely derailed from their good eating habits for a short time. The trick is to discontinue the new bad habits as quickly as possible. I begin today, now....10:30AM Central Time.

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Your Food Diary For:

Saturday, December 3, 2016

BREAKFAST	Calories kcal	Carbs g	Fat g	Protein g	Sodium mg	Sugar g
Quaker Apples & Cinnamon Oatmeal	780	162	9	18	960	54
Little Debbie - Banana Twins	520	82	20	4	280	50
	1,300	244	29	22	1,240	104
L U N C H
Read - 3 Bean Salad	600	130	0	10	3,000	80
Pepperidge Farm - Sourdough Bread	480	88	6	16	880	8
	1,080	218	6	26	3,880	88
D I N N E R
Chicken - Parmesan	900	115	31	43	1,636	16
Baked Potato	200	45	0	5	22	3
String Beans - Green String Beans	100	25	0	6	23	5
Panera Bread - French Baguette	300	60	2	7	733	0
	1,500	245	33	61	2,414	24
S N A C K S
Chocolate Cake	500	70	33	7	522	44
White Chocolate Chip Cookie	400	52	21	0	276	0
	900	122	54	7	798	44
Totals	4,780	829	122	116	8,332	260
Your Daily Goal	3,016	377	100	151	2,300	113
Remaining	-1,764	-452	-22	35	-6,032	-147
	Calories kcal	Carbs g	Fat g	Protein g	Sodium mg	Sugar g
	*You've earned 1,086 extra calories from exercise today

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       Your Exercise Diary for:

Saturday, December 3, 2016

Cardiovascular	Minutes	Calories Burned
TREADMILL 15° ANGLE OF INCLINE	99	1,086
Daily Total / Goal	99 / 30	1,086 / 590
Weekly Total / Goal	975 / 210	10,495 / 4,130

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After over-eating at a football/cheerleading banquet on Saturday night - I see myself busting out of my clothes.

PERSONAL 30 YEAR DROUGHT WILL OFFICIALLY END TOMORROW

Tomorrow, for my customary Saturday weigh-in, I will be comfortably under 220 pounds.  The last time that my weight was in the 'two hundred teens' was during the Reagan Administration.  I can recall that the last time that I dipped below 220 lbs, I continued all the way to 199 lbs and that was way back around 1985.  I remained at 199 lbs for 'about five minutes.'  It has been thirty years since my weight was south of 220 lbs.  I am going to be very happy to this streak end.

Three times in my life I have lost some significant weight.  I don't think of myself as a YO-YO dieter as my three weight loss trips have been separated by such extreme long periods of time.  Perhaps, I can be labeled as a Yo-Yo dieter based on the fact that this is the third time in my life I have lost lots of weight.  Nevertheless, I am hoping to make this my final trip from fat to thin. 

In 1985, about a decade after graduating form high school, I had ballooned up to 250 pounds, and sometime during that year I dropped 51 pounds and reached 199 pounds although it was a brief visit.  I remember that I remained at 199 lbs for just a few days.

In the Spring of 2007 before my 13 year old daughter started Kindergarten I had ballooned all the way up to 300 pounds.  For only the second time in my life, I made some changes and watched my weight decline all the way to 220 lbs before whatever willpower allowed me to get there - simply vanished.  I was 220 pounds for a few weeks before the long march back to 300 pounds and beyond.

Currently, I am in the middle of my third (and hopefully final) giant weight loss journey.  This journey began on December 24, 2014 when I visited my doctor for 'wellness exam' and 'discovered' that my weight had exploded all the way to 309 lbs.  Since, that date, and through last Saturday, I have shed 89 lbs. I expect that tomorrow, when I step onto my scale I will be where I have not been for thirty years.

It is my belief that the last time that I was under 199 pounds might be sometime when I was a Freshman in college in 1976.   My goal has been to comfortably duck under 200 lbs and if/when I am successful getting there - it will be the first time that I am comfortably under 200 lbs in 40 years. That is really a streak that I am looking forward to ending!

Since I easily remembered losing 80 pounds in 2007 that I felt sure that I could do it again once my willpower ended its near decade-long hibernation.  This time things will be different.  I started this journey with a rudimentary plan to lose the weight and then maintain the weight loss.

Today is Friday morning, time for one more day on the self-named, Rabbi Hillel Diet/Lifestyle before my weekly weigh-in tomorrow.  Each week, I look forward to the Saturday weigh-in with great anticipation - and tomorrow - will be especially meaningful to me.  See you tomorrow!

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THURSDAY MENU
breakfast oatmeal w/prune, two poached eggs, two slices turkey 'bacon'                          355 calories
lunch       spinach salad, with chicken and cherry tomatoes
                JIMMY JOHN'S TURKEY TOM UNWICH, one deli pickle                           315 calories
dinner     salmon burger, spinach salad w/9 cherry tomato, cup Tortilla Soup                   308 calories

total calorie consumed  978 CALORIES

calories burned
7AM elliptical 32 minutes 451 calories

THURSDAY NET CALORIES 527 CALORIES