GUILT WORKS

The point is, ladies and gentleman, that greed, for lack of a better word, is good. Greed is right, greed works. 

Gordon Gekko (Michael Douglas) with his famous quote from the 1987 film, Wall Street

Although my successful effort to put myself in the direct path of the solar eclipse on August 21st was one of the most cool things that I have ever done and felt so good at the time, I was at the same time still struggling with my inability to find the person within myself that knew how to exercise and eat properly. Back then I let yet another week slip by before I seriously rededicated myself to reversing the nasty weight gain that showed no sign of abating. On August 28th, I finally reached the point where I was completely disgusted with myself, and I weighed 263.3 lbs. It took another couple of days, on September 2, before I gingerly strapped on my backpack and took a walk. I was honestly scared. I had gone so far backwards with my weight, and I had been so lazy during the summer months that I wasn't even sure if I could take a ten mile walk without a struggle. Since that day, I have not missed a day. and since September 2, according to my calculations I have walked or hiked more than 340 miles. I have eaten much better, as I have rediscovered something I lost when I was packing on the pounds all the way back up to 263.3 - I rediscovered 'guilt.'  Guilt is a powerful motivator. Without guilt, one can eat 20 Oreo Cookies in an afternoon. That cannot be accomplished quite so easily when one is burdened with guilt. The point, ladies and gentlemen, is that Guilt, for lack of a better word, is good. Guilt is right, guilt works.

I am continuing to make progress. Today, I stepped on my scale and my weight is now:

244.9 lbs

The last time I weighed 'this little' was earlier this year on March 25, more than six months ago. I have lost nearly 20 lbs since my self-disgust reached its apex on August 28. I am improving. This weight loss journey, this blog began on December 24, 2014. That was the day that my self-disgust reached an apex too. The thing is, on that day I weighed 309 lbs. So you ask where is the improvement? My apex of self-disgust has dropped by 45 lbs. I do realize, of course, that it might be better, if I simply avoid ever reaching an apex of self-disgust.  Yes, I know that. But I do have to deal with the situation at hand. As happy as I am today to weigh 244.9 lbs, I know too, that once I get down to the 220's or 230's - I will once again be disgusted with the weight that I am today. But that's in the future. Today, I am pleased. If you can follow this semi-logical reasoning, that is fine. If you cannot, don't worry about it. It probably only makes sense to me.

During my early Friday evening urban hike, I passed the Logan Square Dog Park.  The complete mural facing the dog park  depicting all different breeds of dogs is 300 feet long and 17 to 23 feet high.

Your Food Diary For:

Friday, October 6, 2017

BREAKFAST	Calories kcal	Carbs g	Fat g	Protein g	Sodium mg	Sugar g
Quaker Oats instant grits - Instant Grits	400	88	6	8	1,240	0
	400	88	6	8	1,240	0
L U N C H
Sushi - Eel and Avacodo Roll	400	33	18	22	0	0
	400	33	18	22	0	0
D I N N E R
Popeyes - Chicken Strips	500	26	24	45	2,001	0
	500	26	24	45	2,001	0
S N A C K S
Harvest Snaps Snapea Crisps - Wasabi	200	29	9	9	150	2
	200	29	9	9	150	2
Totals	1,500	176	57	84	3,391	2
Your Daily Goal	3,669	458	122	184	2,300	137
Remaining	2,169	282	65	100	-1,091	135
	Calories kcal	Carbs g	Fat g	Protein g	Sodium mg	Sugar g
	*You've earned 1,739 extra calories from exercise today

If every day were like today...   You'd weigh 215.4 lbs in 5 weeks